“From the moment you see your child, you realize that it’s not about me anymore.” -Tom Arnold.
Ok, so Tom Arnold is not the most likely person that I would quote but Andrew and I were just watching that show “In The Wild” and Tom was on tonight’s episode. He was telling the story of how, for 27 years he wanted a child and was finally able to have one.
Just minutes before I heard him say this, Andrew made a statement about how, very soon our lives will be changed. Only two weeks left before Eliza Jane’s due date. Obviously I know she could come sooner or later (…..) than that. But she’s coming and things will be different.
I reflected back to last Spring before Reynolds was here. We kept telling each other how drastically different life would be when he finally arrived. And it was. But it was completely wonderful. There’s nothing more wonderful than having a child and turning your world upside down. Looking at life now, sure there are days when I really need some rest, or just quiet. But life is so much more filling now than what it was.
Not that we were completely self-centered before, but it truly wasn’t about me or Andrew anymore once R was here. You learn that quickly thru sleep deprivation for the sake of feeding or changing or soothing. You don’t spend your money on things that aren’t needed but rather, on diapers. Ha. Your needs and wants are put on the back burner because there is another life completely dependent on you. And even in the exhaustion (at times), all you want to do is stare at that miraculous face and ponder how in the world you were able to be so blessed to know this amazing being.
For now I will wonder about little Eliza Jane. Will she have dark hair or blonde (or red?), will she be fair-skinned like her brother? Who will she look like, what will her personality be like, and on and on.
Two weeks and counting….I guess we’ll finish up that to-do list this weekend.